the art.

every year.

raya comes. and it gets really sayu. every year. was the same. me dad the girls and the takbir.

this year was different, nvm that on that last day i cant fast.
grr a thousand times over.
and then it was new place. not mine. but MIL's.
hopefully this time next year. it will be a crib of our own. project #heavenonearth.
i cant decide on a hash tag yet. but i know inspiration will come.

and with someone i decided to spend the rest of my life with.

as you grow up.
you realise that you dont really have to wait for a day to seek forgiveness.
do you?

no you dont. but as you think abt raya.
you think its ok i can collect all my sins for a year and seek forgiveness.

so then you expect people to seek forgiveness.
as you think its ok to just do. and wait for raya.

in truth. no its not about collecting a year worth of sin.
its about letting go.

you seek forgiveness and on that day. you learn to let go.

and maybe become 0-0 again.
you hope to not sin as much as the year before,

but you know the greatest forgiveness is from the one above.

and you can be forgiven from all on earth.
do you think you can be forgiven if you dont seek it spiritually.

i dunno. i hope to find my way there.

and with marriage and house and everything else.

as i sat down with my parents.
as i try to not look into their eyes and seek forgiveness,
because it makes me cry.

it kinda makes me so sad.
that they all said the same thing.

to not forget them.

yes amidst my busy busy schedule with the whole world.
i forget that other than baby and friends.
i have my parents. and i cannot forget that.

and as raya comes and go.
i dun wanna visit them only during festive.

so i wanna look forward to a year of juggling many things.

and its the art of all. 
this night duty will not go to waste.

i wanna be a better wife.
daughter. daughter-in-law. sister.
friend. a person to all those that matter.

and i wanna do project #heavenonearth.
#seoulsearching.

its gonna be an exciting year of things set to sail.
and i will seek his guidance as i seek to be a better person.