how long will i love you.

They say getting married was not easy. 

But some one and a half year later. 

We're still rocking it. Hope to rock it till forever. 

Living with the one aint easy either. 

So the ultimate to that. Is major compromise. 

There may be nights of "no i want this". 

"Why you never do this ah?" 

"Why you always like that"

"I told you so many times not to do this"

Amidst it all. Waking up to that one person.

Is the reason ure breathing. 

The house is a mess. 

But this is what we've been working for. 

Thank god for the endless sponsors for the house. 

And a home is not how nice a house can be. 

Or how fantastic or hebat the tv is. 

(Nvm that my non-3d tv is freakin awesome)

Home is you. 

Growing up with you for the last almost 5 years now. 

Has certainly made me a better person. 

In every way. 

Never would i have imagined that day i mandi-ed bunga, 

I would find you again after a year. 

And today im living the life with you. 

I cant imagine a life without you. 

I wouldnt have to go through any time away from you. To realise how much i need you. 

I need you all the time. 

To help me through. 

The yin to my yang. 

The bottle cap to my wintermelon. 

Thank god for i found you. 

How long will i love you. 

As long as the stars are above you. 

Lets rock this baby. And with you. 

Anything is possible. 

Emo morning. 

#loml #heavenonearth #thisiswhatlovefeelslike #theone #siqnid

the art.

every year.

raya comes. and it gets really sayu. every year. was the same. me dad the girls and the takbir.

this year was different, nvm that on that last day i cant fast.
grr a thousand times over.
and then it was new place. not mine. but MIL's.
hopefully this time next year. it will be a crib of our own. project #heavenonearth.
i cant decide on a hash tag yet. but i know inspiration will come.

and with someone i decided to spend the rest of my life with.

as you grow up.
you realise that you dont really have to wait for a day to seek forgiveness.
do you?

no you dont. but as you think abt raya.
you think its ok i can collect all my sins for a year and seek forgiveness.

so then you expect people to seek forgiveness.
as you think its ok to just do. and wait for raya.

in truth. no its not about collecting a year worth of sin.
its about letting go.

you seek forgiveness and on that day. you learn to let go.

and maybe become 0-0 again.
you hope to not sin as much as the year before,

but you know the greatest forgiveness is from the one above.

and you can be forgiven from all on earth.
do you think you can be forgiven if you dont seek it spiritually.

i dunno. i hope to find my way there.

and with marriage and house and everything else.

as i sat down with my parents.
as i try to not look into their eyes and seek forgiveness,
because it makes me cry.

it kinda makes me so sad.
that they all said the same thing.

to not forget them.

yes amidst my busy busy schedule with the whole world.
i forget that other than baby and friends.
i have my parents. and i cannot forget that.

and as raya comes and go.
i dun wanna visit them only during festive.

so i wanna look forward to a year of juggling many things.

and its the art of all. 
this night duty will not go to waste.

i wanna be a better wife.
daughter. daughter-in-law. sister.
friend. a person to all those that matter.

and i wanna do project #heavenonearth.
#seoulsearching.

its gonna be an exciting year of things set to sail.
and i will seek his guidance as i seek to be a better person.

#theweddingdate

get it right.

What have I done?
I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can you do when your good isn't good enough
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?

Can I start again, with my fate shaken?
Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this

So I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair!
Yeah, I'll send down a wish and I'll send up a prayer
And then finally someone will see how much I care

tribute.

after grassland.

So love is like waiting for a bus.

And u get on the bus.
Decide whether it will break down or not.

Sometimes u wait so long.
And only one air con bus comes along.

But do you wait for grassland.
Or make do with konsortium.

I found my grassland. After the feeder services
Some air con buses.

Sometimes u wait so long..

Do u make do. Or wait longer for the best.

Well if u get grassland on the first wait.
Ure lucky.

How many people do.

Den its journey vs destination.

Journey wins.

Because once ure on the right bus.

It doesnt matter where u go.

Its the journey that makes 2 person who they are.

So its like settle or not.
To each his own.

I wouldnt. For fear. Of what ifs in life.

So what happens. After grassland.
Its called happy ever after.

With the one.
How do u know its the one.

U just know.

U know when after some 4 years
As he lies next to you.

You still say u miss him.

And when u read his emails.

U giggle.

And when he kisses u.
U get butterflies in your tummy.

Thats my grassland for you.

No one said the journey was easy.

Bumpy roads are a sure thing.

But as u sit in that bus.

All ure sure of is any journey with that one is worth the wait.

Baby I love you.
No one. In this world. Could make me feel the way u do.

And all I wanna think of is this life journey with you.

Just hold my hand. Every step of the way.

#thevow

chasing cars

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's burstibg into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

shoulda woulda coulda

classics are classics.

emotions.
is not logic.
or is it.

and when all else fails.

you do satc indulgence.

Miranda: And then we had to pick a place to meet ad if we both show up on that day,
the past no longer exists. It's like showing up i our promise to each other that we're both willing to let it all go and move forward.
Carrie: Wow. Can you do that?

Miranda: I don't know. I don't know. I have a lot of thinking to do.

Carrie: Thinking? Or feeling?
Miranda: What do you mean?

Carrie: Well, Miranda, you're a lawyer. You know, you can argue both sides of any case.
But why we feel what we feel isn't logical. It's emotional.
So I'm sorry, Harvard, but I'm afraid you're gonna have to base this decision on your emotions.

yes i do have emotions.
came a lil late.

cos time waits for no man.

And how I wish I'd, wish I'd thought a little bit more
Now should I, would I, could I means I'm out of time
Should I, would I, could I can't change your mind
And I wonder, wonder what I'm going to do
Should I, would I could I are the last words of a fool

mirrors.

It's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me
I couldn't get any bigger
With anyone else beside of me
And now it's clear as this promise
That we're making two reflections into one
Cause it's like you're my mirror
My mirror staring back at me, staring back at me

#loveandotherdrugs

just married

I just don´t know if love is enough anymore.

What do you mean, "enough"?

I mean... even if Sarah and I do love each other... maybe we did need more time to get to know each other.

So-- What you´re saying here is... you had a couple of bad days in Europe... and... it´s over.
Time to grow up, Tommy.

Somedays your mother and me loved each other. Other days we had to work at it.
You never see the hard days in a photo album... but those are the ones... that get you from one happy snapshot to the next.

I´m sorry your honeymoon stunk... but that´s what you got dealt. Now you gotta work through it. Sarah doesn´t need a guy with a fat wallet... to make her happy.

I saw how you love this girl. How you two lit each other up. She doesn´t need any more security than that. 

Thanks, Dad.

Is it over? Not even close.

I don´t know where we're gonna be... in years.
I don´t know who we´re gonna be.
I don´t know if l´m ever gonna be able... to give her all of this. 
There are a million things that I don´t know. But there´s one thing that I do. 
And that´s that I love Sarah. And I am going to love her day in and day out... for the rest of my life.